Having a cup of tea in the
morning and seeing the beauty of blooming flowers were really refreshing. The
butterflies danced around me, the birds sang beautifully and the wind blew
slowly. All of these made the symphony of nature and my senses were pampered
with the beauty of nature.
Experiencing all of those things
made me realize how I forgot to enjoy the life. Targets, planning, deadline, responsibilities
and so on have filled in my life and looked like so real so that I forgot that
I am not those targets, planning, etc. I have identified myself into my role so deeply,
so that I forgot that no matter what role I play, it’s just a temporary role
and it’s not mine at all. I played my role as best as I can, but when everybody
around me didn’t play as best as I do, I became so upset. I was also easily irritated
when my role was being bothered by the external conditions such as the presence
and moods of everybody around me, the weather which may change suddenly, the
television program which sometimes provide uneducated program and the internal
conditions such as physical illness, fluctuated moods along the day. Why did I
become so fragile? Where did my all my power go?
This morning, getting a chance to
be here, to be present at the moment when I was enjoying the beauty of
everything surrounds me made me feel that I found my treasure back which has
been lost in the last few years. I am glad to find it cause I know that I am
back on track and I know that I can find my way back home to the nature of my
self to become peace, free from attachment in my role, and powerful.
Written by : Ati Paramita
Photo : Blooming Flower by Ati Paramita